Dear Paul,
I am writing this letter as I feel I owe you an amends for my behavior on March 22nd. I don’t know or remember all I said to you and I hope you understand my concerns regarding this. You have been an important ally and friend as I have traveled this crazy journey towards sobriety. I apologize for calling you in such a state. I did get the help I need and have been in an outstanding rehabilitation center since the 23rd. I am learning so much and am staying out of trouble. My meds have been adjusted and I am now on anti-craving medication. I am in a much better place but don’t know yet when I will be coming home. Please extend my apologies to your wife as well. I was inappropriate in my actions that night and put you both in a bad position.
Thank you for being you,
Signed K.
I don’t remember that last day. I know I talked to Paul at some point but can’t recall what I said only shushing his wife who was talking in the background. I do know I was inappropriate in calling him but it didn’t matter to me at the time. I found out days later when I spoke to another AA member that he and called her and was upset that I was still driving in my state. He had wanted to come pick me up but his wife insisted he didn’t. I survived that horrible night and I am glad he didn’t get me because I would have not ended up where I am. We have local rehab centers and they are nothing like this one. I am blessed to be here and am learning substantially, including how to apologize for my actions when I am wrong. Apparently I called a good many people that night and have yet to look at my phone to find out who. Someday I will have to write more letters. For now it’s a start. I hope he responds. He does mean a lot to me. He is my AA father. He was the first person I met when I started and he has been there for me every step of the way. I hope I have not tarnished our friendship. My first AA meeting he told me I was the most important person in the room. All I did was sit there with silent tears running down my face as he slipped a 24hr chip in my palm. Paul, If you are reading this someday I hope you understand how important you have been in my recovery. Thank you