I expressed my loss of control in last night’s dream. I wanted to share it because it was so significant. I was in the packed parking lot of a new AA meeting. I found an open spot, pulled in, and turned off the car. The entire area had “No Parking,…
Yes, I said it. Day zero. I haven’t been going to meetings so here I am back at day zero. Last night I only wanted a little glass of vodka. I wanted to try some controlled drinking I guess. There was no control about it. I downed an entire bottle…
We read the Twelve Steps and Twelve traditions, Tradition One “Our common welfare should come first; personal recovery depends upon A.A. unity.” I have made it 31 days due to the fellowship I have gained from attending AA meetings. If you are questioning whether you should attend AA this is…
WhooHoo I did it, I have made it through thirty days. I expected chimes, bells, and singing angels as now I am cured. Is that too much to expect? It took months of hard work to get only this far in my sobriety. What’s frustrating is I’m not as excited…
I haven’t been around lately. I had to go out of state to take care of my father who had a malignant tumor removed from his colon. He’s been in the nursing rehab for the last 20 days and was supposed to be coming home today, but he is still…
In the appendices of the Big Book on page 569, the 2nd paragraph talks about the “herd instinct” and how the power of religion and fellowship can do more than medicine for an alcoholic. T. won’t see me right now because she can’t help me. The addiction counselor can hopefully…
I saw my addiction councilor for the third time today. I am not crazy about her and really didn’t want to go back but I must. I don’t need to like her, I need her to help me with this problem of mine. Why I have a new councilor is…
Today a person brought up how people see alcoholics as week minded individuals. Excuse me, but these people seriously have not seen us. I don’t know about you, but I am so strong that I was going to find every way to get that alcohol in my system. My body…
Members of AA love you until you can love yourself. I have only been in the rooms for three months, and yet people I don’t know check in with me, call me by name, and give me assuring embraces even before the meeting starts. How do people who I never…
Alcohol addiction is a disease. I didn’t believe that or I didn’t want to believe it. A disease is Lupus, Hepatitis, or Cancer, my uncanny choice to over drink is not. I do it to myself, right? I am responsible for the actions and the amount of alcohol I consume….