One of the most profound things I have heard has been “The first drink gets you drunk.” I thought this was a ridiculous statement too. No, the first drink gets me happy, it’s the fifteenth that gets me drunk. These alcoholics are ridiculous! What I didn’t understand about this is…
“First Things First” #13 of the Living Sober book was our reading tonight. It’s about putting yourself and your sobriety first. Yes, that means putting it in front of other responsibilities, relationships, and chores. I haven’t been doing this. Not in the slightest bit. I have been placing my job,…
My sponsor has no reason to have a concern for me but she does. She assists me in my journey because it helps her as well. We discuss our lives, our thoughts, and the little things that make us tick. We work through the literature and the steps. While she…
I spent two hours writing my post and the computer just deleted it all without letting my repaste it. I am done for tonight. Catch you tomorrow.
I can’t live without the drink and will certainly die with it. These are strong words but the truth. I fight each minute of every hour sometimes to fight the longing I have for just a glass of something, anything. My ability to stop after one drink is nonexistent. This…
I didn’t make a meeting but did speak to my sponsor for a short while. I traveled out of state today to my father’s home to visit him in a physical rehab center. Among the multiple stressors in my life, my father was diagnosed with a malignant tumor in his…
Happy New Year! I had made plans to go to a nonalcohol party yesterday. I had the confidence and was looking forward to an exhilarating night of dancing. But as the day progressed, I had second thoughts. It was too cold and I was too tired. I was coming up…
Winter has finally come and the roads are covered in a slick layer of ice. All the meetings I could have gotten to have been canceled, not to mention it took me three hours to commute home from work. It did give me plenty of time to contemplate a worksheet…
By noon I was antsy to get to the evening AA meeting. I had that squirrely feeling and knew a meeting was the best place to be. I wanted to drink and if I attended a meeting my ability to conquer the urge would be more successful. There is a…
Hi, my name is K. I am an alcoholic. This is my first time blogging, and my third time admitting I am working on Day 4. It wasn’t easy the first time to admit my failures four months ago and is still not easy today. I functioned well in a…