Let’s stay on Step One. We admitted we were powerless against Alcohol. How exactly? I chose to write all the ways I was powerless. It may not be the same as other peoples, but I bet a few are similar. I am not alone in this struggle.
In no particular order:
- I couldn’t get out of bed without it.
- I couldn’t go to sleep without it.
- I would wake up in the middle of the night needing it.
- I would shake.
- It was always on my mind.
- Couldn’t do people interactions without it.
- I wasn’t enough to face daily tasks without it.
- I changed my day’s schedule so I could be at a liquor store as soon as it opened.
- I would blackout.
- Would make inappropriate decisions based on a mind full of alcohol.
- I couldn’t remember conversations or my actions.
- Would try to stop but always found a bottle in my hand.
- My mind was always all over the place without it
- I tried to limit the amount of alcohol I drank but never could.
- I would wake up in strange places.
- I would spend money I didn’t have on alcohol.
- I wouldn’t show up for important things.
- I would fight with people I loved.
I know there are a few more but these are the main ones. Maybe I will add to this list again later.