Day30

WhooHoo I did it, I have made it through thirty days. I expected chimes, bells, and singing angels as now I am cured. Is that too much to expect?
It took months of hard work to get only this far in my sobriety. What’s frustrating is I’m not as excited as I expected to be. I am proud of myself, don’t get me wrong. I counted to this day every evening as my good night thought.
When I got the 10-minute coin, I was embarrassed to stand up and admit I had relapsed again. The 24-hour coin was obtainable and fell within the concept of “One day at a time.” That was the easiest of tokens to get. Thirty days of sobriety seemed impossible. Now that I have made it an unbelievable month I don’t have the luxury of accidentally drinking again and just needing to stay sober for 24 hours to gain back where I left off. Since I have made it thirty days I want to hold on to this coin, this milestone.
It’s a real bummer, this idea that I have. I have made it thirty days and I must not only hold on to it but now, I must make it another thirty days.