What a friend I thought you were over the years. It was a comfort to always have you by my side. Every endeavor I undertook from my first days as a child to my wild adult life you were there. Unchallenging and accepting of everything I did. I fell in love with you, you were everything to me. I was loyal to you and never let anything get in the way of us being together. How could I live without someone who was there for me at my worst and shared in my joys? Through thick and thin we traveled this life journey together. I was wrong to put such faith in our friendship. You betrayed me and I will never be able to forgive you for that.
It won’t be easy for me at first. I will think about you often and miss you sometimes desperately. I will want you by my side at parties and want to hold you when I am feeling sad. But I must say goodbye. It won’t be easy at first but only for a little while. I loved you and you destroyed me. I am choosing to let you go. I have peeled your sharp relenting claws from my soul. You lied to me with promises of happiness and fun. You promised to be my friend and make the world such a better place for me. You were supposed to be my friend. You didn’t really care for me though. You didn’t care if I was happy or sad you only wanted a way to consume me, a way to become me. I won’t let you. I see you for who you are now. I see that all those times we were having fun you were busy manipulating me, making me do things I should never have done. You made me say things and go against my own ethics. You destroyed my moral compass and made me care about nothing but you. Because of you, I became something I never wanted to be, a cheater, a liar, a self-seeking fool. You made me paranoid, neurotic, and ugly. YOu attacked my mind, my body, and soul leaving nothing but a broken shell. You left nothing untouched and spared no expense to bring me to my knees. How could I have been so blind?
I am rising up against you my dear old friend for I now know what you are and I will not let you back in. I know the illness, the devastation you cause. I am stronger and can’t be tricked into your abating world. You needn’t even try for the gig is up. A friend you never were and never will be again.