Almost made it a year! I relapsed yesterday but it’s a new day. I am not going to beat myself up over it. I was overwhelmed with work issues, home issues and had a major fear of getting in trouble for something I did while I was in my active addiction that is now catching up to me. I have to let go though. I can’t really plan for what might happen, I have to take each minute as it comes. The what-ifs will kill.
I am still seeing professionals from the rehab that I went to and they were there for me yesterday. They have been super supportive. I can’t say enough about the program I am in. I feel genuinely cared about. They hold group meetings 2 days a week for me and individual therapy once a week. It was my fault for not participating enough in the meetings and sharing where I was truly at. Isolation will get me every time.
For now I have to get to more AA meetings because I have been slacking off. They really make a difference. Where else can you go in feeling like the world is going to end and get support from total strangers!